Optimistically Pessimistic

You know what I’m sick of? I’m sick of never being good enough. If it isn’t my Dad, it’s you, you insensitive asshole. What did I do to deserve this? You fucked up. You treated me like dirt and it’s over. I don’t understand why you have to keep dragging this out. Stop calling me a whore. You left me. You chose this. Now that I’m all glued back together, you don’t get to call me a whore. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. I’m not having these conversations over the phone anymore. You need to grow up and get in the car and come see me if you really missed me. I’m not alright, so stop asking me. You ruined me. Just go away.

In need of a hug

Yes.

So I found myself laying in bed, thinking about my day and I just started crying. My boyfriend’s bestfriend was telling me how much he hated middle school at dinner. Then he went on to say he was bullied…like really bad. It seriously makes me so sad because he’s such a cool guy and I just don’t know why people are so awful. It’s not fair. No one deserves to feel like that :( I just can’t come to pull myself together. It’s just sad :/

Fuck Leukemia

I have been laying in bed for an hour…and I can’t stop crying. Why does this have to happen to the people I love the most? I’ve finally hit my breaking point. I don’t know how to live in a world without Helen…she’s always been the person that I can tell anything to…please God :/ I can’t take this…I just don’t understand anymore.